I called Jake my baby the other day and Sam said "He's not your baby, he's big - I'm your baby."
He is so my baby. This week he started at his Pre-School and we are both having a hard time letting this happen.
He was so nervous and anxious the first day. When I dropped him off, he tried so hard not to cry. So hard in fact that his lip was sticking out and trembling. SO.HARD.TO.LEAVE.HIM.
I had about a 10 minute window to pick up Jake at his school and then driving to Sam's school 10 mins away to be there for his pick up. I have never been so anxious and driven so fast in my life. When I arrived at his school the line was out of the parking lot to pick up. I zoomed around everyone and pulled up right up front - got out of the car to grab my kid - and he burst into tears. "I missed you so much mommy" The teachers told me he had a few ups and downs throughout the day.
When does your heart not hurt for your kids anymore? Sam is so in his head - and gets use to a schedule that any disruption throws him off. I was hoping today when I dropped him off it would be easier. Its show n tell and that has been his #1 reason he wanted to go to Jake's school. He has been dying to do show n tell.
Well, it didn't matter - it was worse today. The teacher told me to let go of him and hand him over and I said - "I'm not holding him" He had his legs and arms wrapped so tightly around me I could completely let go of him and he didn't move. He was SCREAMING hysterically. I had to just hand him off and leave. I got in the car and I cried hysterically.
Why is growing up so hard - on us both? Can't he just stay little forever?
I want my happy, fun loving, carefree kid back.
And now I'm at work and can't even pick him up today! I wonder if he'll break down crying when he sees Mike today.....or if that is something he saves just for me. I love that he's a momma's boy - but boy does it make mornings emotional!